Happy with a secret

I don't know how to properly express in words how bittersweet it is, being in Stockholm for this exchange. Anyone who really knows me would expect me to choose Paris over any other city in the world. Paris has been my love for as long as I can remember. People ask me, "Why Stockholm?" My honest answer is, I save money with accommodation. I truthfully have no interest in the Swedish culture, language, or history. But, I am in Europe - a continent I've always been fond of. But being anywhere else in Europe besides Paris for an exchange program makes my dream feel so close but yet so far. I do appreciate being here though. I appreciate my parents sacrificing so much for me to come here, and for my relatives here who were more than happy to let me call their home my home as well. I'm just torn between where I am, and where I think I should be. But it is what it is. The only thing I can control is the way I handle the experience. I plan to make the most of it. I told myself my New Year's resolution would be to not have any regrets. Carpe Diem!

Ps. Now that I'm caught up with The Big Bang Theory, one 20 minute episode per week is not enough! =(